
MISS MISERY
I forgot when is the last time i experience this special kind of misery.
It was around the end of 2006, i guess, when everything fell into pieces.
I remember walking alone around city with a canvas shoes and a t shirt shouts Kancut (man, oh man). I don't know what i was doing, where i was going to, but i do remember the feeling, the silence break in madness street.
During that phase, i tried any kinds of movie to watch.
I tried any hair styles for a sake of perfect make over.
I tried to take public transportation to mysterious routes (yes, i got lost thousand times and ended up doing taxi ride home).
I tried to stop socializing and deal with myself.
Aren't we all get through that path once and twice in our lives?
At first, we do/did blame it on something/someone else, yes.
But do/did we really recover?
Many people said that time heals, drink heals, new shoes heals, extreme make over heals, new love heals,
but do/did we ever really recover?
Or the wounds are hidden to some secret box in our mind?
Dear scientists, can you detect the location of our future-blocking boxes, because i want to vanish them all with an Avera Kedavera spell, become a hero of the universe.
PS: dear Mr. Picasso.
I'm not a painter.
I'm not a sculpture artist.
I'm not even an art student.
But you and your Blue Period is my guilty pleasure.
I cannot accept the fact that something beautiful could be reflected from misery.
It's not fair.
But i do love you still.
May you rest in peace.
Amin.